Friends & Relationship...

Looking back at my facebook and myspace profile, I have little friends and some of them have never talk to me or connecting with me there, even though they were on my friend list. So, I might think that they may be stalkers or some sort of strangers or negatively too shy to show themselves. However, its better to regret than to hate. Well, for me its always been a personal thing when it comes to facebook, or myspace, or anything in the internet that I wrote or posted.  Thus, if anything about me on the net that seems to make me feel uncomfortable, ignorance is what I shall do. Because I really don't give a shit on some people. For instance, if someone added me in facebook, I will see how it goes. If  It gives no value for the friendship or whatever, then I'll remove he or she from my friend list or if its too suspicious, I'll not entirely accepting his or her request at all. Its not that I being arrogant or not being friendly, Its just that sometimes I feel like I need to disqualify people that didn't match me at all. Of course, Its not that easier than you think. I go through people saying bad things about me, sometimes publicly. Feel empathy for their anger. xD

  I dont have much of teenage friend and sometimes I feel very isolated. So my friendship is not just with people, but it is also about my carrier, Its about how I conducting with my work, improving my studies,  experiencing  the coursework, completing group task, and where my vision is through them, through the journey that we had together, with my classmates. Im always grateful to be working with my studymates lecturers. My study mates were really nice. Ive been working so hard, my whole life to be successful  in my carrier. Carrier is in one of my goals in life. The outcomes are really impressive when It is done excellently, so Im quite excited to be always tired for myself. :D

 When  in high school years, I remember those words "I want you to reject anyone who's ever made you feel like you don't belong." I always feel like I'll never be anything in life, I love to learn on people somehow. People think I learn like a freak, but when I look up to myself, I'm so sure that there will be good input for me to achieve something. It really keeps me from losing hope. :)

On the other hand, do I look like I'm a loser sometimes? Yes, Of course I do. Everybody feels like a loser sometimes. So, I really do feel like one, especially when it comes to have a good partner or better  known as  a girlfriend. I think people have this conception about me, or misconception rather. I strongly believe that there is someone out there for everyone. But for me? It's a secret. ;) My relationship  is the only thing I don't talk about. I don't know how others do it, I really don't. I don't know how others talk about their love affair or their breakup or even their  love story. I would never reveal anything like that. Its totally a secret  in a different way. I rather reveal it much in a very appropriate way. Perhaps by engagement  or  by wedding. ^.^

Having said all of that, there may or may not be a partner with whom you’ll spend your life. :/ Not everyone has the experience of growing old with another human being. It may or may not happen for you and that’s not necessarily a bad thing. ;) There’s a difference between being alone and being lonely. For example, one of my favorite things to do is take myself out to a dinner and movie date. It’s a wonderful experience and though I’m alone, I don’t feel lonely. I’ve made the choice to do something by myself. And at the end of the day, our relationship with our self  is of first importance. Ironically, when you become okay with being alone, many people will be attracted to your confidence and self-reliance. The opposite is also true, such as few things are less appealing than someone who desperately needs a boyfriend or girlfriend. :P

People change, relationships evolve and circumstances shift from time to time. If you feel like you’re trying to fit square peg of a relationship into a round hole of your life, maybe it’s time to make room for something new and different. It’s not a friendship or relationship gone wrong, just something you’ve outgrown. And sometimes the best way to repect that relationship is knowing when to say goodbye. ;') Gently let it go, and then relax in the freedom and peace that you’ve created. It is for the important work that you are doing, and even the problems you had in school were a training ground for it. If you had not been bullied (and become a better person because of it), you would not be able to provide quality advice now.  >:D

I believe everything which happens to us has a reason when we grow up later. Because when this young person has gone through this now, he/she will be better able to relate to other young people in similar situations. (Perhaps as a counselor or youth worker.) :)  So goodluck!